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Same old Battle

Months have passed, and yeah, things barely changed. Actually i was getting better weeks ago, but i dont know, now im back with the same old pain, same old thoughts, its getting me down all the time. Now i realize, why did i get better weeks ago? It was because i keep forcing myself to let it go, go through it, trying to forget it, and keep moving forward. The thing is, the main problems aren't solved yet, sooner or later, it will be haunting me every single night, knowing that i was just hiding from it, i was just hiding from the hell i made myself. The main opponent is my very own mind, my head, my brain, my thought, im in huge jealousy after my colleagues, i still cant get over my previous relationship (if called so) 

In my Darkest Hour...

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      Tbh idk what is it to be written on this blog, i was just wondering maybe i could jot down something that maybe i could look up years to come (lol), just to express what's on my head these days. Honestly, i have no background or major on writing so bear with me on that xD. ((  My go-to song right now  )) -- check it out :)     September, It has been a rough month lately, rough times, rough situation. A lot of contradictions and just bad thoughts all around, starting from my grade, my relationship with her ( i won't tell you guys lol ) and my addiction that i've been trying to eliminate is going way further and i don't know if i could overcomes it and finally being free. I don't know if i could make it to other days. my anxiety and thoughts have won against me this time, my friend told me to seek for a psychiatrist or psychological help but i'm not really sure... its just keep accumulating and to top it all off, my relationship with that girl has gotten wor